Oh to think of all the places I have been. I went for a job interview yesterday. Can I just say it rocked.
Almost 8 years ago I came to this place that saved my life. I wanted to stay there forever. I was perfectly content living with a bunch of women attempting to get well. I loved the people who ran the place, I enjoyed the personal growth that occured in this place. I was happy happy happy. After 90 days they kindly told me it was time to fly. They gently lifted me to the wind and my wings strong in faith carried me places I only dreamed I'd go.
Over the years I have returned to my happy place where I got a fill for the journey I have walked. I was always able to go back to that time of fear and unsurity (is that how you spell it) I was unsure okay. I am filled with gratitude each time for the special gift that was so selflessly bestowed upon me. I usually get asked to come and share my experience, strength and hope. I always feel honored that these people want me to share what I have with women who are just like I was. I leave this place remembering exactly why I wanted to stay.
The call came early February, they wanted me to share what I have again. Only this time they want me to join their team. They want me to begin my journey of gently sending people down their own personal path. I have patiently in all my excitement let HP and the fantastic people at this place guide me. It has not happened instantly and it wont happen still for months but yesterday, April 25th I learned when the time is right (a few months) its mine!
Again this magical place is allowing my dreams to come true and now I can call it home (kind of) and I dont ever have to leave (unless I want to)
Thank you to all those who know me and have walked this path with me. Thank you to Reagan who suffered all those years as I gained my education in an attempt to better the future for you baby. Thank you to my dear husband that has stood by my side, supported me in every way and let me take the job of my dreams. Thank you to my beautiful Tanner who has no idea why his life is so blessed for coming into my life and giving me the opportunity to experience this miracle clean. Thank you HP and you know why.
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When I was 14 I attended a rural Jr. High School where kids actually enjoyed being a part of Future Farmers of America. The difference between these kids and me was the fact that I lived in a trailer court and hadn't been no where near a farm. For many years we co existed just fine the farmers and the trailer park kids but Jr. High was a new animal.
About this time I started to use substances, any substance, all substances to feel different. I didn't want to be labeled white trash because of where I lived. The insanity is that I would be what I define trash today. Our home was filthy, my stay at home mom was actually a drunk. There were no fresh baked cookies waiting for me when I got home. There was no time set aside for homework and help with homework was not a consideration. So substances became a way of feeling warm and fuzz. Even under the influence I was a straight A student. It was hard not to be, for me.
My baby girl is 14. She attends what could very well be a rural school but actually appears to be a factory for teenage drama. My daughter is very different from me in the sense that I care what is happening with her. I help with homework, her father will help and we are emotionally available at all times. She is as intelligent if not more than I was at 14 because so far as I know she isn't escaping through chemicals. This child cannot pass her math class. No amount of help is working. She does great on the assignments and fails the test???? Does this make any sense to you internet. I tell her 10 minutes before school lets out bring your math book home. 10 minutes after she gets home it clicks "she forgot it"
What is it that makes an absent parents child and honor roll drug addict and protective parents child a flake.
3 Names U go By:Mom
T.
Terri
3 Screen Names U Have Had:Came2believe98
Freedom14
Free Journey
3 Things U Like about Yourself:My Intelligence
My Honesty
My Eyes
3 Things U Don’t Like about Yourself:My Teeth
My Butt
My Tummy
3 Parts of Your Heritage:German
English
Everything Else
3 Things that Scare U:The consequences of using substances
Fire
Drowning
3 of Your Everyday Essentials:Coffee
Recovery
Love
3 Things U are Wearing Right Now:Wedding Ring
My Mom’s promise ring
Shoes
3 of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists:Kelly Clarkson
Guns n Roses
Alabama
3 of Your Favorite Songs:A moment like this
Mr. Brown stone
Roll on
3 Things U Want to Try in the Next 12 Months:A vacation (anywhere)
Losing more weight
Get a new job
2 Truths and a lieI used to carry a loaded weaponI have been to jail – twice
I have 8+ years clean
3 Things You Want in a Relationship:Honesty
Interdependence
Awe!
3 Things about the Same Sex that Appeal to U:Self confidence
Positive Outlook
Strength of character
3 Things U Just Cannot Do:Like sea food
Surrender Daughters Future
Stop recovering
3 of Your Favorite Hobbies:Reading
Playing with my children
Napping with my baby
3 Things U Want to do Really Bad Right Now:Nap with my baby
Go to that job interview
Eat lunch
3 Careers U are Considering:Counselor
Project Coordinator
Retired
3 Places You Want to Go on Vacation:Europe
Mexican Riviera
Pennsylvania
3 Kid’s Names:Drake
Savannah
Nathanial
3 Things U Want to Do Before U Die:Retire
Travel
See my grandchildren
3 Ways U are Stereotypically a Boy:I think women are beautiful inside and out
The way I dress
The way I play
3 Ways U are Stereotypically a Chick:I cry at movies and commercials
I care what others think of how I look
I wear make up
3 Celeb Crushes:Nicolas Cage
Sandra Bullock
3 People U Would Like to Complete This Quiz:Who ever, Have Fun.
