Friday, June 16, 2006

"Some things we must accept, others we can change. The wisdom to know the
difference comes with growth in our spiritual program."


So according to the meditation today, I am spiritually dead... For real. All the issues around raising a 14 year old delinquent have got me questioning acceptance, surrender and parenting. How do you simply accept the behavior of your child when you know it will damage and possibly kill them. How do you surrender your child to a God who allows that child free will. I have been given the pleasure, opportunity and often dreadful job of parenting this child. I love her so much and my heart is breaking with the turmoil.

I have raised her differently than this. It is my hope that one day I will see that she actually learned something because for today I see only defects, and believe not a thing. I am sick, tired and ready to feel relief.

What is it I can change and how can I accept that which I cant. HP help and guide me.